Make Space

 I have a moment to myself today (bliss!), as both boys are napping! Oh how I LOVE when that happens. So with a cup of tea nearby, I'm able to let you in on my thoughts today. It's exciting stuff.

I was gently reminded by Hannah last night in our session about making space. Making space to let the universe unfold and do what it does best. 

Dreams don't happen by themselves, so I'm using my meltdown about being a stay at home mom as my catalyst to get moving on them. I begin my process of interviewing potential in-home daycare providers tomorrow so that I can get two days a week of uninterrupted creative time to get my business back up and running. I have been feeling this pull so strongly for months. There were a few things holding me back, fear of failing, leaving the boys with someone else, all sorts of what-ifs, making sure childcare wouldn't be a financial strain, as well as the logistical side of things. 

Where was I going to work? Right now my unused art supplies and sewing machine are collecting dust in a corner of Judah's nursery. I just don't have the funds for an outside studio space (yet!), so David and I finally decided to have the boys share a room, so that I can have a space to work and spread out and not worry about little hands getting into things. I was pretty apprehensive about having Judah "invade" Gabe's space, but we have always wanted them to share a room, it's plenty big and he is pretty much sleeping through the night now.  So with a deep breath and with David's help we are going to make a studio for me and a shared bedroom for the boys. 

We need to make space for our dreams, the universe will not answer our call if we don't lay the proper groundwork first. Make Space. It's my new mantra.

Comments

[Carmen Farrell]

Yes! So glad to hear you're making space (both literally and figuratively) to do what you love. I feel like we're very similar in that creating (anything, really) is in our genes. I too spent much time feeling stuck and frustrated. I'm so glad you're coming out of that. Sounds like the universe is ready to show you what's just around the corner.

[geek+nerd]

Bravo lady! Make that space!

[meg]

that is so, so wonderful! what a big push forward. I can't wait to see the space!

[Shalonne]

I can't wait to see your new art! I'm very excited that you are getting your business up off the ground. Maybe we can trade rabbit meat for art!

Reading your blog from before and seeing your creations has really inspired me to try to be more creative myself so I can't wait to see what you come up with next!!!

[harmony]

I cant even tell you how much your words describe so much of my recent life. feeling buried by motherhood, with no creative space left in my body, bur craving it, needing it to feel whole, to feel sane. I did just start letting someone else help me with my son at the house for a few days while I work. The space that was cleared has been healing and freeing. I feel more capable to be a good mom. I feel more like myself. I feel happier. I think for many of us the actual act of being creative each day in someway allows us to stay in touch with who we are and keep our spirits in balance. I am starting to realize that this is just as important as eating or sleeping for me. Maybe for you too? Thanks for your honesty. I am right there with you. :)
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